For years, I kept my mouth shut. I swallowed the jealousy when I saw other kids hit milestones. I swallowed the anger when a professional told me to be grateful.
I swallowed the grief when my friends complained about nap schedules and school pickups. On the outside I was stoic. On the inside I was drowning in thoughts I didn’t think I was allowed to have.
You’re not a bad parent for thinking the hard thoughts,
you’re a human being in a hard situation.
“Bad Thoughts” is the book I wrote for the parent I was then:
It’s a short, honest read that names the intrusive thoughts you’ve been scared to say out loud and shows you why speaking them is the first step to regulating your nervous system, advocating with clarity, and building real connection.
the one who needed someone to go first.
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When my daughter was diagnosed, I felt like the floor fell out from under me. I taught her sign language at our kitchen table, argued with professionals who didn’t see her, and watched my marriage bend under the weight of it all.
I learned everything I could about how to advocate for my daughter - except how to wrangle all of the emotions and bad thoughts floating around in my own head.
I speak openly about the jealousy, rage, and grief most parents keep hidden because I believe honesty is the beginning of healing. I built this work because I don’t want anyone else to carry those thoughts alone.
I’m a mother of a child with special needs, a therapist by training, and the founder of agencies that support adults with disabilities.
“Bad Thoughts” is my way of going first.
I’m Angel, and I wrote this book because I needed it myself.
Bad Thoughts is a collection of raw moments and clear reflections designed to meet you in the thick of your own story.
You'll find:
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Invitations to process your own experience - journal prompts and gentle questions that help you put words to the feelings you’ve been avoiding.
The mindset shifts that saved me - how I went from feeling like a bystander in my own life to becoming my child’s fiercest advocate without burning out.
My daughter’s diagnosis, from the first consult to the years of therapy - and the emotional roller coaster no one prepares you for.
The “bad” thoughts that kept me up at night - jealousy, resentment, fear, anger and why admitting them didn’t make me a monster, it made me a better mother.
Bad Thoughts is for the parent who’s been handed a folder full of paperwork and no space to breathe.
It’s for the mom who wants to scream when someone says “special kids for special parents.”
It’s for the teacher who wonders what’s happening behind the scenes and wants to understand.
It’s for the dad who is working late so he doesn’t have to face his own grief.
It’s for the administrator who’s tired of treating families like files and wants a glimpse of the human side.
If you’ve ever felt like an outsider in your own life because no one around you understands, this book is for you. If you’re ready to stop pretending and start healing, this book is for you.
